You know, since I have been back, it seems like the quiet that I discovered in Haiti has ceased to exist. In the midst of all of this noise that we call our lives, it is a constant struggle to find a little peace and quiet.
But, the quiet I'm talking about isn't just lack of noise that I am looking for. It's this stillness that I can only find in my Father...
One day, while we were in Haiti, our leaders carved out an entire day for us. Not a day to relax or rest, but a day to do whatever we felt God was calling us to do. And immediately, His very real presence told me, and repeatedly told me then, and is continuing to tell me now,
"Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."
~Psalm 46:10~
At first I thought He was asking me to stay back at the compound to pray for the others that went out to minister to the people of Haiti. But where I went instead, was definitely where He wanted me to be.
While some of the members were called to go down to the ocean and minister to those on the beach, others were called to prayer walk in the area around our compound, and a few others did end up staying at the compound to pray. The group I went with, went back to the church we had been doing our VBS ministry at.
And we sang, and we danced, and we cried, and we prayed... without ceasing... for almost 3 hours!
I would say that one of the greatest gifts that God gave me, was my ability to sing. I can't say I am great, but I definitely felt like it had been my biggest outlet for praising Him. But I discovered something... I discovered that my biggest outlet for praising Him, is just to be alone with Him. To BE STILL and KNOW that He is my GOD.
My biggest prayer while I was there, was that God would reveal Himself to me in the midst of the heartache, and the filth, and the corruption, that is called Haiti.
When I asked Him what He wanted me to do, we didn't chat... and I didn't question Him... because when he told me to BE STILL, I MADE time to BE STILL. Being here in America, where everyone go, go, goes, it is hard. But, we have to make time...
Today I have to make that time. Since I have been back, I have craved, and desired to find some of this stillness; I want more of it.
I can't please everybody... I do love you. But my number one concern in life is that I please my Father. That I make time to be with Him... Because this quiet stillness I am searching for, can only be found in Him.
The last day in Haiti, we went to the beach. It was fun, it was relaxing, but it was also still... Nature has always been my peaceful zone. When I am frustrated or confused, or I just need to get away I go outside. And today, October 13, 2012, is the perfect day to be outside. The air is warm, but the breeze is cool. It's the perfect day to sit out at the property of your future church to dream, to be still, to find rest... To be still in Him.
And my prayer now, is that you find this stillness too. Because He will fill you, and restore you, and give you this unimagineable love and hope that you have never felt before. It's like a coma, you get so far into the stillness that you don't want to come back. But when you do, He will make you ready to go out and do His mighty work in this land.
Until next time...
Still in Him,
Symone Lin
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